G A L A U

sad if to speak, but how else would try it .. I'm confused. yes, troubled man as a boyfriend: (
I do not understand why do not ever disagree? why? every time I do something make sure wherever he is understanding the other. Now he likes to disappear :( incomplete reportedly lost here. I was sad very sad. I am confused what to do? what should I do to not fight continues? we always went out in order not to get bored but so is messagge definitely a fight .. I'm confused, completely wrong .. but I do not want to break up: (I love him but what he loved me? hufttt
I do not want to discuss it again in order to break the ice to stop a fight but still it was wrong again: (again, one of ya god.
I'm trying to better bury him what I think, is that better? yes akupikir that an action is good for now :)
I cried silently, quietly sad, listening to music slowly also quietly :)

okay , see you next time reads

SELFISH :(

hai bulan september :)

ga kerasa ya uda bakalan mau ganti tahun aja...

reads, pengen share aja kenapa gue posting tentang kata egois!

yap, i think this is being felt :( tapi ini bukan maksud gue egois sebenernya, cuma buat orang itu ngerasa kalo lo harus lebih baik dari sebelumnya.. bukan unsur paksaan buat lo harus jadi orang yang sempurna buat gue, hanya saja pacaran itu perubahan..ya suatu perubahan yang bener2 berubah dari kita jadi orang yang lebih baik..seenggaknya anggep aja pacar itu back up lo untuk berubah.. dengan begitu ga akan ada kata-kata terlontar dari mulut gue untuk bilang break sama pacar. gue cuma ngingetin lo dalam segala hal..dibilang lebay lah, ngeselin lah, maksa lah... emang sih sedikit maksa guenya tapi apa iya itu salah? kalo gue nyuruh solat? nyuruh kuliah? nyuruh minum obat? kayaknya jadi suatu hal yang paling lebay makanya. gue minta break eh dibilang egois.. muati deh gue~

tujuan gue break itu cuma pengen lo ngerasa kehilangan sama perhatian2 kecil yang gue kasih ke lo. biar lo mikir "kenapa dia udah ga ngingetin apa apa ke gue lagi?" cuma itu..tapi mau gimana.. emang udah batu duluan sih ya.. ga guna juga gue pacaran kalo gini caranya.. 

baru kali ini ya reads gue ngerasa aneh pacaran sama orang tipe begini.. di care in salah, care banget salah juga, ga dicare in malah makin salah..ahh pusing sumpah deh!!

sekarang gue sama dia baik baik aja :) tapi gue pikir yaudalah follow what he wants. 

This may feel he is better in a way I do not care anymore to him.

 so, I will not force anything anything to him, though he was happy with the freedom they have in dating. that he did not think I was much demand him.